I have a five minute break in the weather and I'm using it to blog. I think this demonstrates that there's something wrong with my brain. Or maybe it's to reassure friends. I didn't get a post-excursion rest yesterday because of the malware and because friends rang me up. My phone was a bit hot because of the malware and folks not hearing from me, and I'm still getting "Did you get my email?" worries, and I worked as late as I needed to and I didn't catch up before a virus caught up with me. I keep telling myself that if I had rested instead of worked I would be better today but that's just not true: I have a virus and my legs would still be wobbly and my muscles sore.
It's not use telling me to take care of myself this time, for the deadlines have reached the immutable and urgent stage. I'm doing my very best to take care of myself and get through this week.
This week was always going to be tough, because of the deadlines and the big excursion, and now it's ...challenging. I have messages that must be run tomorrow, so I'll get out for a couple of hours or so then and today will be all about the next 2000 words of intelligent scholarly ponderings. I'll come online for my microbreaks and I shall twitter and FB during that time. I'll answer emails and comments on blogs when I can, possibly when life is less impossible (I hate being so tired that my fingers don't want to work, to be honest) and in the meantime, please don't ring unless it's something super-urgent. For if you ring, I will (as I did yesterday) assume that something is direly wrong at your end and I will worry. For friends can't be ringing to encourage me, when the help I need is to focus clearly on work for many hours at a stretch. Mind you, if a friend were to say "Gillian, let me drive you round your messages tomorrow afternoon and I can see you that way," I would agree with much gratitude, for simple messages take a long time on foot and by bus.
This is still one of the busiest weeks in years and it will be better soon, but only if I actually get things done. If I don't get things done by deadline then I shall have to cancel the weekend, which includes a dance party and celebrating Cellophane. I do not want to cancel my weekend (one full day of weekend that I am taking!).
I feel guilty at telling people "don't ring," but yesterday was hours longer because of phonecalls and I am way short of where I need to be because of malware and... I hurt. Simple virus. What my body needs is a day in bed. And I can't get it. All the moveable deadlines have been moved, and I cut off several obstacles to my resting that way. What I'm left with now are the deadlines that must be met. It's the price of starting my career afresh - I need to do certain things at a certain time in a certain way. Other people are affected when I don't and there are contracts involved.
It's not use telling me to take care of myself this time, for the deadlines have reached the immutable and urgent stage. I'm doing my very best to take care of myself and get through this week.
This week was always going to be tough, because of the deadlines and the big excursion, and now it's ...challenging. I have messages that must be run tomorrow, so I'll get out for a couple of hours or so then and today will be all about the next 2000 words of intelligent scholarly ponderings. I'll come online for my microbreaks and I shall twitter and FB during that time. I'll answer emails and comments on blogs when I can, possibly when life is less impossible (I hate being so tired that my fingers don't want to work, to be honest) and in the meantime, please don't ring unless it's something super-urgent. For if you ring, I will (as I did yesterday) assume that something is direly wrong at your end and I will worry. For friends can't be ringing to encourage me, when the help I need is to focus clearly on work for many hours at a stretch. Mind you, if a friend were to say "Gillian, let me drive you round your messages tomorrow afternoon and I can see you that way," I would agree with much gratitude, for simple messages take a long time on foot and by bus.
This is still one of the busiest weeks in years and it will be better soon, but only if I actually get things done. If I don't get things done by deadline then I shall have to cancel the weekend, which includes a dance party and celebrating Cellophane. I do not want to cancel my weekend (one full day of weekend that I am taking!).
I feel guilty at telling people "don't ring," but yesterday was hours longer because of phonecalls and I am way short of where I need to be because of malware and... I hurt. Simple virus. What my body needs is a day in bed. And I can't get it. All the moveable deadlines have been moved, and I cut off several obstacles to my resting that way. What I'm left with now are the deadlines that must be met. It's the price of starting my career afresh - I need to do certain things at a certain time in a certain way. Other people are affected when I don't and there are contracts involved.