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Nov. 19th, 2012 09:33 amI think I should just accept that bad things are going to happen on my mornings until they finally stop happening. Nothing terribly big and bad, but a few small things each and every day. The negatives add to each other and no reason is given. The difficult part of it is that they just *happen* - no reasons given nor ways of sorting. If someone has been hurt or offended, I can't apologise. If I have underperformed, I can't do better, for I don't know what I have done. So these morning negatives not only happen, they pile up.
I get more problems on days that hurt. Today hurts quite a lot - if I hadn't taken time out yesterday, it would be much worse. The pain's not going to stop me doing things today, but I suspect it might get in the way of me enjoying them, especially since I've already had three problems thrown my way this morning.
I did that bit of extra work last night. I just need to enter it on the computer and do a printout and one last big think before I can move on. This is what I do when life is out of control and full of negatives: find the one or two things that aren't out of control and do something to ensure they remain that way.
I get more problems on days that hurt. Today hurts quite a lot - if I hadn't taken time out yesterday, it would be much worse. The pain's not going to stop me doing things today, but I suspect it might get in the way of me enjoying them, especially since I've already had three problems thrown my way this morning.
I did that bit of extra work last night. I just need to enter it on the computer and do a printout and one last big think before I can move on. This is what I do when life is out of control and full of negatives: find the one or two things that aren't out of control and do something to ensure they remain that way.