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I'm home, after many, many tests. I only spent 3 minutes waiting to be seen and I spent the rest of the evening either being tested or waiting for results. The 'some vision lost forever' is the sum of it, but I had a lucky escape. It could have been much wose. It may be much worse next time. I was nearly entirely blind in one eye. I asked about the tests and it seems that I have other incipient problems. All hopefully avoidable, now I know about them.

I would rather be able to see properly, but I count myself very fortunate. I have a specialist eye appointment on Wednesday and have a many-page note to take to my GP tomorrow. And, as a rather odd side benefit, I have a way of possibly diminishing the swollen legs. Alas, no-one could do anything about the swollen ego.

Unsuprisingly, the most probable immediate cause is stress. I am therefore warning all my friends - reduce the crises in your lives!

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My life is just a bit full of news. The latest is that I am down yet another source of income this year. This is just a bit dire. I was told for two hours last night that I needed to reduce the stressors. How one does this without income is an interesting proposition.

If things don't turn round, I might have to give up the writing and teaching and research and go back into the public service. I'm not going to race into things for a few weeks, though - I can't, till I'm more sorted health-wise. Maybe some of the people I consult with and advise will come through and demand my services and feed me more income? If they don't, though, then I may have to give up the dream (again - I gave up the other dream when things went wrong in 1988 - I'm running out of dreams to give up).

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narrelle has a meme and it's perfect for improving my day. I want to say bitterly 'Let's face it, my day could do with improving,' but I'm at the stage of impossibility where I see fear under my pillow and have started doing stupid things, so bitterness is not a wise reponse. Not when I wondered why I was so hot, and completely forget that it's midsummer and I didn't even have a fan blowing. Also, that I didn't drink much yesterday (too much hospital) or today (too much panic over income). So I'm overheated with a headache and there's not a thing (new) wrong with me. I wish the hospital had a machine which checked for commonsense.

Anyhow, the meme:

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